Tuesday, April 16, 2013

The Difference a Day Makes

Well, here I am...officially a week has gone by now since I was officially diagnosed with cervical cancer.  Though nothing has changed and I don't have any new information about my diagnosis or what my next steps will be to get rid of this junk, I feel like the fog has lifted for the most part and I'm seeing things a little clearer now.  I am ready to move on and be cancer free!

No one has the sense of urgency like you do when in a crisis - this has been so hard for me to digest this last week.  I woke-up last Wednesday and immediately started calling the oncologists that I wanted to meet with...immediatley...like at 7:30, only to get their answering machines saying that they don't open until 8:30.  So, I called back right at 8:30...only to find out that they can't make an appointment for you until they have received your medical records and insurance information from your diagnosing doctor.  Hang up - call my doctor - she is not in the office on Wednesdays - leave a message on the "medical records" voicemail - wait 30 minutes - nothing - call back and press the button to be connected with the nurse - get her voicemail and leave a message - wait 30 minutes - no returned phone call - call back and press the button to talk with a human.  When I was finally able to talk with someone, I explained my situation and she said that she would fax my info over to both doctors ASAP that day...and she also gave me her direct extension so that I wouldn't have to go through that bullshit again...cuz I'm pretty much a celebrity in their office now...being the first patient in 10 years to have cancer and all.  Don't be jealous.  I called both oncologists back later that afternoon to ensure that they had received everything, which they both had, only to learn that now they had to enter my information into their "system" and they would give me a call back within 24-48 hours to schedule the appointment.  I won't continue to bore you with all of the boring play-by-play, but geesh...it is a lot of freaking work to get a damn oncologist appointment! Now, a week after being diagnosed, I have three appointments scheduled - one this week and two next week, so we should have a good idea of where this all is going soon...

Ah...the difference a day makes though.  I've learned this lesson before as I'm sure many of you have too...and then you get real comfy in life and the way that things are going...when suddenly something happens that smacks you in the face and tugs at your heart only to make you realize this lesson again.  I pray that I can really grasp this lesson finally and live each and every day to its fullest rather than getting comfortable in the routine and monotony that I usually find myself in.  You just never know what is going to happen tomorrow...let alone in an hour or even in the next minute.  Take the time to do the things that you love the most and be with the people who you care about.  Be real.  Don't get caught up in the yucky drama that life brings sometimes - choose to be better, not bitter.  Cuz at the end of the day, none of that crap matters.  The laundry will still be there tomorrow.  Your life will not end because you didn't see that one person's post about their drunken Sunday on Facebook.  Put down your damn cell phone and live in the moment.  Be present - especially with those you love the most.

What Matters: Naps and Snuggles with my Angel

One of my college roommates is getting married this summer in California.  It is going to be the most amazing wedding at one of the most incredible resorts in Southern California - so amazing that the discounted room rates she was able to negotiate for those attending is $300/night.  Yes!  It's family friendly too, so we've decided to make a family vacation out of it...and now in addition to staying at the resort for three nights, we're going to fly in a day earlier than originally planned to take Reagan to Disneyland.  I am so pumped.  It will be so fun to watch her little face light up when she sees Mickey and Minnie are real...as well as Cinderella and Ariel.  Seriously...just the thought of going gives me chills and makes me want to cry.  It's kind of sad that I had to be diagnosed with cancer to lighten up and not worry so much about the budget and following Dave Ramsey's plan to become debt free.  That's still important of course (and honestly if we wouldn't have been so strict with the budget and saving money for unexpected stuff, we would probably not be going or we would've put this on a credit card and just dug ourselves deeper into the debt pit)...but when you're faced with something so crazy and unexpected, the things that really matter - like making memories with my family and friends - are a no brainer. 

1 comment:

  1. You are sooo right...making memories with friends and family is #1. In the daily hustle and bustle it's easy to forget what truly matters. Thank you for sharing your story. Love you so very much!